Love being a non smoker


 This was the way I have always felt.  I was chained to my addiction of smoking cigarettes. No matter where I went it was always with me.  


I am not going to say how many years I have smoked, (just out of embarrassment) but to  many, way to many.  I have quit a couple of times before only to find a reason to start-up again.  I had some good reasons, but that shouldn’t have been an excuse.  I tried to justify a situation to make me believe I was entitled to have that cigarette.

I am going on 5 months of being a non smoker..  Yay for me.

How did I do it?   I decided enough was enough.  In my life I needed to make some changes and smoking was on the top of my list.  I was ready again.

So I set a quit date.  Gave myself time to put myself in the proper mind-set, that I was going to do this.  Did some research and decided to get help with the Patch.  Then I thought of all the positives:

  • save my life
  • save money, buying the cigarettes, plus on health insurance (smokers pay more)
  • save on embarrassment – all smokers can relate, finding a place to smoke, people walk by you and give the look of disgust, you smell,
  • no more smokers cough, you know that one every time you laugh you can’t help but have the course cough that always follows
  • you don’t have to worry about when you can have your next cigarette.  I found the hardest is when traveling.  Going to someones house that doesn’t smoke.
  • Having to step outside in all-weather conditions, just to get that fix.
  • Become an individual, be your own person.  Don’t smoke because others are doing it.

There are so so many of them, we all have our personal reasons and those are just some of mine.

Since I quit smoking my family thinks it is so funny when I complain about cigarette smoke.  Their answer is “now you know how we felt”.  My answer is “omg, I do now”.  I cannot stand the smell of cigarette smoke right now.  I can smell just the slightest bit of smoke.  I am not going to say that I haven’t had any craving for it.  I did.  But I kept thinking about why I didn’t want to smoke and, it got me through it.  Trust me it is not easy.  I had a situation happen in my life, not a pleasant one and I decided I did not want to be like that.  Smoking was one reason I thought of that would make me different.  So when I feel like lighting up, my mind goes to a certain thought and I take control again.  I have asked a friend one time  when she was smoking if I could have a drag?  She said “absolutely NO”.  I told her I just want to see if I miss it.  She caved and handed me her cigarette, I took a puff and handed it back to her and said ” no, not missing anything”.  I was so happy, I got it out  my system to want a cigarette.  So as the day went on then turned to months now, I can say I am proud of myself.  I really didn’t do it for anyone but myself.  That’s what made the difference this time, plus with the help of the patch.  I only took it for three weeks.

My family has told me they are proud of me.  I have told them sorry it took so long.  But I needed to make this happen for me and me alone.

5 month as a non smoker and counting.

If you smoke and have always said, “ya, I will quit one day”, make that day happen.  Trust me I will never put down anyone that smokes, that’s your choice in life, but what I am saying if you want to quit maybe think about yourself instead of the people who are on your back about it.  Hell, it worked for me.  And trust me, I never thought I would never ever quit.   Surprised me.

I am confident that I will never be a smoker again in my life.


smokeless in  Chicopee Massachusetts       Lynne

January 20th is right around the corner

This is only my thoughts on our president.



On January 20th, the United States of America with have a new President,  Mr. Donald Trump.

Is it time for a change, absolutely.  Our country is in so much trouble.  It is so separated like never before.  We are all americans.  Is it because of this one man, Mr. Obama, no but I believe it was his leadership that had people believing in what is not doable.

In America we have an election to vote for our president.  Well, we had the election and America spoke we voted for Mr. Donald Trump as our president.  Mr Obama had eight years.  People like change, new set of eyes lets just say.

As an american, I voted as did everyone that wanted a say in the vote.  When I hear people, OK celebrities say they are going to move to Canada because they do not like the way the election came out, I am embarrassed.  Because they did not get their way……  Ok america, do you agree with me when I say the salaries they are payed is so outrageous, a regular american will never see that kind of money in their lives it’s ridicules.  They should be blessed, they live in america.  Land of the free, land of the american dream.

As a american we need to stand beside out president elect, even if this is not the person you voted for.  The election is over, our President of the United States of America is President Donald Trump.  


      Our country is in so much trouble, as the quote states:


Let’s all come together, it shouldn’t matter if you are a republican or demarcate, black or white or any other nationality, we are all americans. Time we start to act like that.

I would like everyone who reads this to pass it along please, lets all come together again.

After you read this please hit the like button on the bottom, even if you don’t like what I wrote.  This is a way I can see how many people really read my article.  

Thank you very much, just felt like I needed to get this out there.

Lynne Robitaille

Organ Donation Advocate

3 years ago today

December 29, 2013.  A day I will never forget as long as I live.

I am about to write this post because:


It was around 10:00 a.m., Sunday morning when my phone started to ring.  I glanced at the number calling it was area code 617.  Boston Massachusetts.  I started to shake, I answered the phone and on the other end was our Dr. from Boston.  He said to me very calmly “Lynne, yes this is Dr. Steward and yes we have a heart for Lauren.”

Well, it has been 3 years now, and I can report that Lauren is doing great.  Just had her yearly biopsy, no rejection and all blood work looks great also.

I cannot say how grateful we are to the hospital and all the doctors and nurses that gave me my daughter back.   Also most importantly we cannot say “THANK YOU ” enough to the family that is Lauren’s donor.  We realize that someone must die when you are waiting on the heart transplant list. That was the hardest thing we had to overcome to make our dream come true.

To this day we have not found out who was Lauren’s donor.  We have written our letter but no response.  That is their choice and we respect that.

As I am sitting here writing this my mind is taking me back to that day.  Flashes of the hospital keep going through my mind.  I will never forget right before they took Lauren into surgery.  I sat there looking at her and watching her.  Wondering what in the world is going on in her head.  I was scared, I need to be able to say this, “was this the last time I would be able to see or talk with her.  Will I ever be able to give her just one more hug”?

Well, we all know how it turned out.  I can only hope our story has helped others in making that decision to become an organ donor.  If not please consider it.

Because someone did, I have my Lauren today

My daughter’s new heart took it’s first beat at 12:15 a.m. on December 30, 2013.



Surgeon with human organ for transplant








Obstacles & Emotions

It has been quite awhile since I have written on my site.  Our lives have been very busy over the summer.  Ok, who’s life isn’t busy.  It’s just been priorities and really no time to put thoughts together.

I have been dealing with a lot of emotional thoughts and dilemma’s.  How to handle certain obstacles and emotions in personal situations.  In the last months, emotions have been happy, sad and hurt .  

Since being home from the hospital after my daughter had her heart transplant, it has been 2 years  4 months.  Memories are still strong, but I have been working to ease my thoughts.  It’s not easy, but life needs to move forward.  I have  wonderful support from my family being my husband, my son and daughter and my daughter-in-law.  Also I cannot forget my wonderful friends.

Some people I have found just don’t get the emotional trauma someone endures when being in a stressful environment for a lengthly period of time.  The most hurtful thing I have been told was “get over it, move on”.  Some people think I just keep dwelling on the past.  I sit there and cry inside and say to myself  “for one day try to put yourself in my shoes during that time”.  Trust me I do not want sympathy just understanding.

When someone wants to talk this quote says it all:

“The major dilemma is that we tend to listen to reply, while all we should do is: listen to understand and feel.”

Everyone has major dilemma’s in their own lives, let’s try to listen to understand instead of passing judgement.