Yes, I’m having surgery tomorrow morning. January has been a hell of a month for us. I’ve taken take of my daughter now it’s my turn to take care of myself.
About 8 weeks ago, I started to experience pain in my back that traveled down into my right leg. Didn’t think much of it, until it started to get worse with no relief. I finally had to call my Dr. A couple of years ago, I was experiencing lower back pain. I was diagnosed with Degenerative Disc Disease. I did physical therapy and it went away. But now it is back.
First they tried me with 800mg of ibuprofen. The pain just kept getting worse. Then they gave me prednisone which is a steroid for 5 days. Nothing. After that I received muscle relaxers to help. This was around Christmas time now. I can honestly say, it ruined my Christmas. I had a couple of mimosa’s in the morning trying to enjoy my Christmas morning with my family, but it is true you cannot mix booze with muscle relaxers. Let’s just say, I worked so hard to have a beautiful Christmas for my family and it did not turn out that way.
Went back to my Dr. and now they had me go for an MRI. At this point the pain was just ongoing. Every moment of the day, it has been getting stronger and stronger. I cannot sleep, and if I do I end up waking up around 2-3 in the morning with pain that I have to stay up. Laying down makes it throb more. When I had the MRI done, it was so painful. I could not lay still, my back and leg kept going into spasms. I had to just bite down on my lip and keep telling myself you can do this. The whole time I was having this done, I kept thinking about my daughter and all the procedures she had to endure. If she could go through the hell she went through, then I could do this.
Results from the MRI came in. I was on the phone with my Dr. and she said “normally I would have you come into my office to talk, there seems to be a mass on your spine”. I really wasn’t sure I heard her correctly so I said to her, “are you saying that I might have the C word. (I couldn’t say the word). She wanted me to see an Neural Surgeon. I just sat there and cried, I felt like my whole world just ended. About an hour after I got off the phone with my Dr., my phone rang and it was the surgeons office calling. They wanted me to come in that day. Now I was really scared. Called my husband and he was home before I could get myself together enough to be able to talk. We went to the office and to our relief, it is not a mass. I have 2 herniated disks that is hitting my sciatic nerve and the image she saw was my bone protruding out a bit. We scheduled the surgery but it was going to be 3 weeks away. So for the last 3 weeks I have been living with a pain I wouldn’t wish on anyone. They have me on percocets to help with the pain, but it is really not touching it. This is how bad the pain is…Dean and I were invited to go to the Patriots playoff game. Great seats so there wouldn’t be that much walking. At first I said no, I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to walk it, but then said the hell with it, I can do this. Well, I only lasted till half time. Thank God we had a hotel room close to the stadium.
So tomorrow hopefully I will be able to get rid of the pain I have been living with. When we went to the hospital with Lauren I actually had to use a wheelchair, I could walk the hospital. I am very nervous about having back surgery, but I have no choice at this point. I guess it’s Lauren time to step up and take care of her mom for a bit.
So to all my friends out there, if you haven’t heard from me in awhile, this is the reason why. Just staying in and trying to find positions that try to make me comfortable.
Wish me luck
Lauren told me, “you got this mom”.